Life is a Dance

I feel like being a little girl and a grown-up girl at the same time.

Part of me wants desperately to run and play somewhere... tumble and feel the earth under me. I want to be like Pocahontas running through the trees then diving into clear water... moving where the wind takes me and feeling the breath taken out of me at the sight of God's glorious beauty.

On the other hand...
The sun is setting, it's quiet outside, and I have music running through my heart. I smile as I think about writing love songs and sipping a cup of tea on the porch swing, guitar in hand. Put my glasses on, snuggle under a blanket...

Life has taken me captive.

All of me just wants to fall in love with life.

Which woman am I?
I think I'm a little bit of both. Elements of so many passions reside in this heart.
I long for adventure, yet my soul stirs in the quiet places.
One place I express the facets of me is through dance.
I love to give everything... every particle of energy, every snippet of my colors, and every thread of my being in a dance for my Lover...


A song I have yet to put to music:

I love Him softly with the pretty pieces of my heart.
Lay down shades of pink and weeping for the love that overcomes me.
Taken wholly with the movement.
Grace surrounding.
Up, through,
Eyes clear,
Follow this Lion.

Mystery and revelation flood my senses.
The aroma of His vineyard makes me laugh in wonder
Who is this that makes me feel like clay under His tender hand?
He rises with the morning and fills my life with light.
Oh, touch me again... this love is overwhelming.

I laugh, I love, I dance.
Through You, my breath takes flight
My feet are free with the wind
You are my ribbon of delight

I love Him boldly with the valiant pieces of my heart.
His eyes pierce mine and we go round and round.
I dance in awe of His might.
Strength surrounding.
Abandon, Release,
He is here,
Revere this Lion.

Come under His hand and allow my heart to be inspired.
Unhindered passion comes from a well inside.
I draw from the depths and come alive.

I laugh, I love, I dance.
Through You, my breath takes flight
My feet are free with the wind
You are my ribbon of delight

Little Steps

I feel like I'm emerging out of a dry-ish season. Or I very soon will be.

I've been struggling with feeling alive lately. I feel like I'm not truly living out of my deepest heart of hearts.

Now, if you know Jessica, you know that I am a very passionate person. I am excited and exuberant over almost everything. I love being like that... it's so much a part of who I am. I feel alive when I love things. :)

Like so many others, I've been ruined. I've tasted love and life and now, anything less leaves me unsatisfied.

Right now, I want to feel wholly and completely engaged. I want to know who I am, and live as that woman. I want to sing because I'm happy. I want to smile like I have a secret I want to share. I want to randomly get the urge to go on a barefoot adventure. This is what being alive means to me. I want to love the men in my life and encourage them to become true men by being a woman. I want to speak to my sisters and lovingly guide them to their Creator. I want to be a blessing to my family. I want to know with my entire being that God is good, He's big, and He loves me.

I know God has me walking through this season for a purpose... there's newness coming. I've experienced some of it already. God is giving me

• new dance
• new music
• a new voice
• and a new perspective.

"Though I turn away, your mercy brings me back to you again... You draw me closer. You draw me in."

- You Draw Me Closer - Brent Helming -

Thank you Jesus for this time.

~Amen~

Destiny Calls - Written July 9th, 2005

The valley floor is quiet today but for one sound

Amidst the flowing grasses, a gentle song floats on the breeze

A budding wildflower in despair raises her voice to the wisps of wind all around her...

She cries out to her Maker,

“Where have I been?

Where am I going?

It’s all such a mystery to me…”

“Young one,” the Creator whispers,

“Put your trust in me

I know the plans I have for you

Trust in me”

Petals open to reveal a flower’s beauty

She’s been waiting to blossom

Coming into what she is created for, her joy knows no bounds

Finally knowing that she belongs, that she has a purpose in this world,

She directs her stunning face towards the Son and calls out,

“You saw my tears and rescued me

You watched and caught each one

When I needed someone to be there for me

To listen to my every care… my every living breath…

You were right there waiting for me!

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU

I LOVE YOU”

A tear glistens in the Author’s eye as he gazes on his beautiful creation

He shouts for the whole world to hear,

“THIS IS MY BELOVED,

my BRIDE!

SHE HAS CHOSEN ME!

SHE HAS CHOSEN TO LOVE ME…”

And for a moment, time stands still…

All creation is silenced in the unfolding of this incredible love coming forth

All at once, the gorgeous flower is engulfed in the brilliant light and glory of His presence

His amazing warmth penetrates to the deepest parts of her spirit as the Lord returns…

“I LOVE YOU TOO”

Clear Vision

I feel this new level of vision for my spiritual walk.

I feel redeemed and restored.

I feel good.

:)

It's a fresh season. I can feel spring on it's way.

WHoo.

It's like a birth of newness and fresh inspiration.

I feel so alive.

God is so good.

We're painting our house right now and I love this feeling of transition.

Wow. Ten Shekel Shirt places words to exactly how I feel right now.

MMmmm.. I feel so in love with life.

Here are the lyrics to their "Risk" song:

Life is meant to be like a kiss

Cause intimacy is bliss

To be loved and to love

Is what everything is all about.

Mmm... I can't wait to dance tonight.

I feel infused with joy.

Truth Triumphs

This is the battle:

I feel I am torn between my emotions and what I deeply know to be true. My soul and spirit are clashing in a battle for my love and devotion. If I choose one, it seems the other must submit.


This is the lie:

I am at the mercy of the clock. I can never be good enough. I keep screwing up, procrastinating, not making wise choices. I am performing and scheduling and strategizing up to ying-yang, and I've had enough. I need to run outside in free air... I need to go fast or very slow and forget about life... busy, busy life. I am anxious and unsettled and wish for an escape. I have made myself vulnerable and now want to lay down somewhere and cry.


This is the truth:

I am covered by grace. He loves me no matter what. My King would lay down His very life because He deems our relationship worthy of such a sacrifice. He loves me with a fiery, passionate love, and no one can take that love. I am the Lord's. I am the delight of the King. He sees beauty in me... and desires to unveil it. He is my righteousness. He is my justice. He loves me, and He is Good.

Healing comes as I pour out these things of my heart.


This is my choice:

Every time I enter a heart-battle like this, I feel as though my center stability is hanging in the balance. Where will I fall? Who will I believe? What do I focus on? This moment of choice is imperative.

A Casting Crowns song puts my determination into words...
I will listen and believe the Voice of Truth.


This is my conclusion:

I put my trust in the One who is ever faithful. I reject the lies of the enemy and desperately ask for the Truth to set me free.


This is my proclamation:

I CHOOSE TO LISTEN AND BELIEVE THE VOICE OF TRUTH.