Thursday, May 29, 2008


Father, bring me to a state of brokenness. I am so full of myself sometimes. Almost all the time.

God, you and you alone are deserving of praise. Not I, not anyone on this earth can comprehend your vast greatness and mercy. You loved me first. I can't believe you could love me like this.

The following pieces from an excerpt out of Real FamilyLife magazine (Nov. 1997) have hugely convicted me of my desperate need for brokenness and repentance.

The Beauty of Brokenness

Proud people look down on others.
Broken people esteem all others better than self

Proud people have an independent, self-sufficient spirit.
Broken people have a dependent spirit and recognize the need for others.

Proud people need to maintain control: must be my way.
Broken people surrender control

Proud people have to prove that they are right.
Broken people are willing to yield the right to be right!

Proud people have a desire to be a success.
Broken people have the desire to be faithful to make others a success.

Proud people feel confident in how much they know.
Broken people are humbled by how much they have to learn

Proud people are self-conscious.
Broken people are not concerned with self at all.

Proud people are concerned with being "respectable"
Broken people are concerned with being real

Proud people are concerned about what others think
Broken people know that all that matters is what God knows

Proud people compare themselves with others and feel deserving of honor.
Broken people compare themselves to the holiness of God and feel desperate need for mercy


That last one is incredibly convicting.

God is SO big. He is so LOVE. Let him deal with your pride.

We are entering a rapidly-moving, humility-requiring, intense spiritual era on this earth. The ball is rolling, but we need to make sure our hearts are clean and ready to move with Him.

The Lion, Jesus, has awakened my heart.

Let's roll.

Friday, May 09, 2008

Power, Love, Sound Mind

"Gone are the days of timidity. From this day forward you will walk in boldness."
- Lynda Meyers speaking over me this morning

God has not given us a spirit of fear. God has not given us a spirit of fear. But He has given unto us a spirit of power, a spirit of love, and of sound mind.

Power, Love, Sound Mind is MINE.

Fierceness return. This is my spirit-cry. My El-Shaddai.

He completes my walk, makes me pure, beautiful, glorious.

Thank you Father, for this season. You've grown me so much. It's not over yet. But I choose this day to end the madness. The lies of the enemy will permeate my mind no longer. He has been defeated. Christ's love well up in me. Thank you for giving me vision. God, you are good.

Lord, give me a new understanding of your supremity. Your arm is so far-reaching. Beyond time and space. You are motion unveiled. Freedom ignited. Falsity expelled.

God, I let go of my pride, my need to get things done, my need for approval. I lay these things down and accept into my heart the words you speak over me.

You call me as your own. Your bride. Your beautiful one. I have been called to free the prisoners, cry into the darkness and call forth those who are not yet as though they are. Open my eyes and ears father.

Love you,
- Jess <><